i break my OWN rules

i have this inner guide that is uncomfortable with a lot of situations. it tells me, hey ryan, you shouldn't do [event] or go to [place], you'll feel uncomfortable and you won't have fun. now, let's discuss both sides of a hypothetical situation: if i listen to this voice, i'm going to be comfortable and i'm going to do the things i know like to do; however, if i don't listen to this voice, i'm going to feel uncomfortable, but there's no guarantee that i'm going to feel that way the whole time. there's a good chance that the initial jitters will wear off quickly and i'll end up enjoying myself. i'll also be able to say that i overcame my tendency to turn my back on the unknown, and i'll be one step closer to becoming a great pirate. this inner guide is actually a good source of things to do; it's like a reverse bucket list. if i do all the things i don't want to do, turning around and tackling those that i look forward to won't seem so daunting. huzzAH

too many people subconsciously believe that a public rephrasing of the national consensus on a topic will be viewed as new, relevant, or important information, and expect that it's worthy of recognition and praise. the sad thing is that, because there are so many people like them, they do get that attention and it encourages either elaboration or self-declared new material. i wish more people were honest with themselves

i'm human too

i over-think just about everything

sometimes i think i'm mildly autistic; i tend to rock back and forth, and when i have a lot of energy and am comfortable with my self i make loud noises

i get cranky if i don't eat or drink something or if it's hot or if i'm with people who i don't want to be around

i have a freckle on the inside of my left-hand middle finger, please don't stare

i don't like almost all the people i see on the antiques roadshow

i notice how you use your and you're and the the[i][y']r[e]s

i can't finish a lot of things

if i do something once and it doesn't work i'm not very likely to try it again

i try to always think in the big picture, which sometimes can be detrimental

i'm often glad that i'm not like certain types of people

my body has an annoyingly high tolerance for caffeine

i can't hold a grudge against anybody who does something to me, but if they do something to someone close to me i usually have no trouble disliking them

i want to know what i could accomplish with just me and my thoughts, sense-blind and alone, for 500 years

i pay attention to intonation and inflection

i like when people are themselves

i would like to share all of my brain-thoughts with one someone